Leaps and bounds
I’m meant to be flying to Sydney from Coolangatta right now. Instead, I’m on the ferry to Waiheke Island. How life can change at such a rapid rate, never really knowing what’s on our horizon will forever amaze me. Funny, to be heading back to the island I called home as a child throughout a time of constant chaos.
I’ve been in deep reflection lately, not due to circumstance or even willingness. It’s been a subconscious progression, as if the universe is dropping little nuggets of gold into my mind each and everyday, teaching me how to listen and where to turn next.
Many reflections on the past have been resurfacing, as I notice just how much I’ve changed and how that change inevitably effects the future I’m walking towards. Interestingly enough, all I once wanted remains the same, as if I’ve gone down this path of a huge rebirth just to land precisely where I’d started. Yet the difference in the woman who now stands here is nothing short of monumental…
I don’t look any different. An outsider would know no better. Yet my core has completely flipped upside down and in the most positive and freeing way known to man. I FEEL different, and those who really deeply know me can see it. The most delicate twinkle in my eye and the very way in which I stand. The confidence, clarity and purpose I’d so desperately been chasing has finally landed within me. I have my mother fucking sparkle back!
The change this is creating externally is slowly taking form, but again, in ways only those truly watching can recognize. Decisions are made efficiently. Direction is open to spontaneity yet bound to inner trust and confidence that’s intentionally applied. Little fear holding me back from the journey I’ve been craving.
I can leap off the cliffs, eat all the foods, run across the mountain ranges and still sleep soundly. I can ride the motorbike myself, dream of sailing the wildest oceans and laugh at the unknown of what tomorrow may bring. I can tell you who I am, what I want and the very reasons for wanting it. I can direct the strings of my life together with little to no effort, and those which are harder to pull are finally easy to articulate regardless of their restraint and resistance.
Because what belongs, will always land.
I finally feel like ME again, and god am I excited about what that means…