Threads
This pavement has been moving far too rapidly under my little feet. I’m running, as fast as I can! Yet it doesn’t seem to be fast enough, which is incredibly infuriating to say the least.
A common theme across multiple avenues of my life, yet all these seperate pathways are now linking up to the same intersection. This is a positive, as it’s the ground work of the last few years finally coming into full fruition. The work I’ve done to actively string together the contrasting threads of my life, pulling them all toward the same Queen stitch. Yet the rate in which it’s all coming together has me almost sprinting, balancing and jumping between every single thread attempting to stay alive, and beat them all to the damn finish line.
Life can be like this at times, and it’s nothing I’m not used to. Nor is it something I’m afraid of… Although I have to admit that my ability to compartmentalise and keep up at such a speed has been incredibly taxing. I’m operating at 30% energy, but expecting 150% output. And the craziest part is that I can’t see it slowing down anytime soon. In fact, I actually think it’s speeding up!
I’m well aware of what’s happening. But fuck man, I’ve been grinding on this wild roller coaster ride since March last year. Every little detail slowly lining up. Visions and dreams I’d been designing are taking physical shape, landing in the real world directly in front of me and I’m standing here like “how the fucking fuck did I get here?!” Yea I know, it all sounds a little airy fairy, and that’s nothing new either as I’ve been attempting to articulate this feeling for the last seven months.
More importantly though… If I can just wrangle my shit together and keep up this crazy lady pace until these threads unite and this foundation is finally fucking stable, that will be the true beginning. The base will be there, and this goddamn pavement won’t be shifting under my feet so much! And that ‘my friends’ is when we build the layers.
Look at it like a triple tier cake, we need a strong foundation that has the capability to hold up all the layers. The layers are the creative part! They are the implementation of the ‘new me’. I hate using that term, yet that’s essentially what they are in their simplest form. It’s a rebirth. Again, dumb term, but 100% accurate.
The old doors have closed. The lessons have been conquered and the slate is finally clean, so every tiny detail of how I move right now matters the most, because it’s the foundation that allows me to accelerate into my future, that gives thanks to the old me and opens new doors for future me.
I can pleasantly say that this next cycle has me pretty excited. It’s also really surprising me! As I’ve mentioned before, I never expected some of these new opportunities to come to light! Yet it all makes so much sense as the inner work I’d been doing is truly being rewarded right now. Money is flowing in like never before, strategy is blossoming and the rewards are flying at me like a jet plane. I’d called it ‘a good string of luck’ in January… Now I think it might run far deeper than that.
Fun fact, I was told that six year old Tessa set one hell of a hefty financial goal to hit before her 30th birthday, and well…she’s certainly going to hit it at this rate! And that’s nothing short of a fucking miracle considering the financial turbulence of the last eight years.
I digress.
We truly do hold more control than we give ourselves credit for, and your missing link is your emotional weight. So, if I was to stop talking about myself for a second and shine the light on you, I’d tell you to take a good hard look at your emotional and energetic leaks, then re-calibrate yourself toward the person who is already succeeding.
Take back those reigns.
Your future is awaiting your arrival.