Fuck off Tessa!
As I sit here in Indonesia, just gone 11:15pm, the most perfect balmy temperature. I find myself sitting on my villa balcony in only my underwear, taking in every ounce of this exact, present moment. Why?
It feels like a dream. Yet I can’t relax, because it’s only the beginning…
Just a few months ago I was stuck in the in-decision of making this leap. Completely caught up in the limiting beliefs accompanying my greatest desires. You see, this was not the simplest of decisions… I made many sacrifices to be here. But if I’ve learnt anything in the past year, it’s that change does not happen without taking action. I’ve had all I need and more to make change in my life, yet my confidence and belief in the power of ME being strong enough to achieve it, felt like the greatest leap of them all.
Looking back on my biggest achievements to date, they haven’t come from a logical place, they’ve all been these big daydreams where I asked for guidance and answers, was given a very dazed roadmap and pure determination brought them to life. As if I forced myself into this all or nothing mindset and gave the universe zero option other than to support me.
Here I am once again, looking back on so much failure yet copious amounts of inner growth, seeing precisely where I went wrong and finally closing chapters on old karmic cycles and limiting beliefs that no longer serve me. I’m beyond proud to say that I instinctively feel ready to bring my biggest daydream to life! Although I admit, I’d presumed by being ‘ready’ (or as ready as possible…), means everything would all fall into place easily. God fucking damn was I mistaken! I’m now battling fresh wounds all over again as I reopen the gates to my vulnerability, as it turns out, the inner knowing to follow a path in life doesn’t always lead us into the hands of confidence. To my dismay I’m still over here working through every little detail of my being, in a place of full analysis as I realise this journey is destined to help shed every. last. insecurity.
Limiting beliefs are hands down our largest roadblock.
Not money, not time, no… it’s you and your mindset. As soon as you say ‘I’m not stopping until I reach this goal, I leave no space for doubt.’ Challenge will come, roadblocks will come, but a good fucking plan and bucket full of ambition will open all the doors to bring your dreams to life.
As good as I am at preaching this to everyone else, sending out copious amounts of support and belief to the world, I’m still faced with the challenge of giving it back to myself. Fuck man, wouldn’t it be nice if I could just look at myself the way others do and not get in my head? I am my biggest critic and it’s fucking exhausting!
But I ask myself, Tessa, what is your dream? And what beliefs are holding you back from achieving them? If I look at my future self a year from now, what will I regret more… Another year passing and not doing the ‘thing’ because of my fear, or having started and be a year closer to my overall Northstar…Yea, right, well fucking GO then babe!
